Essentially, I disappeared. I don't know when it happened (my experiences with trauma and therapy are shared in a new blog called Embracing Life), I knew something was wrong but I couldn't figure out how to fix it. Eventually I grew too tired to even try, which brings me to this year when I decided to retire early from my job and focus on my health.
This will be a slow process. Over the past year I have been taking medications which have been helping tremendously. No one was more surprised than myself when one day, shortly after beginning the medication, everything became clear to me, like a bright sunny day when it's freezing outside... everything just sparkled. I really hadn't noticed what had been lost.
As part of the journey I am looking at different ways to apply therapy to my life, music, art, and of course, literature. Poetry in particular. Lots and lots of Poetry!
I'm looking forward to sharing again what I love and the joys of the written word, it has been a solace in the darkest of times.
This is a slow process...I have slammed on the brakes, put everything on pause, begun to learn about boundaries, expectations and living a life freeform. It can be overwhelming, but I have accepted that what's working today may not work tomorrow so the ability to adapt from day to day is a work in progress with room for LOTS of rest breaks. In point it took me two months to write this first entry.
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